Month: May 2012

What an honor and a gift from God to be a mother. Never in a million years, could I have imagined what mother’s love feels like until I had my babies. It’s almost as if your heart is going to burst with all the love you hold for them. Mother’s day is truly a wonderful holiday, not only do you give and receive extra attention; you also remember what an honor it is to have a mother and to be a mother. To me, it was a day of extreme appreciation and gratitude. I kept thanking God for my dear, kind, giving, and loving mom and at the same time could not tame my heart from the joy of being a mother myself. I kept asking God, “how did I ever deserve this”? I could not stop looking at my babies and praising Him for giving me a gift of motherhood. I pray that I can be the mother He intended for me to be, and I will never stop relying on the One and Only to walk me through the journey of selfless giving and yet to have enough strength to discipline and not give up. Every day holds a challenge and it is only through God that we face them with strength and love. I often get asked a question: “Don’t you get tired of being at home with kids every single day”? My response: “Never”. I am sure they are not talking about physical exhaustion but more so mental and I cannot even fathom my life any other way. Yes, it is exhausting at times, you get tired of laundry, spit-ups, cleaning up, ironing, repeating the same thing over and over again, but at the end of the day you have nothing but gratitude for such gifts in your life. Nothing compares, to hugs, also known as “squeezies” , the way their face lights up when they see you, the laughter, the cute little voices and especially when you hear “Mama/Daddy, you are my best friend”, or at the end of the night after you tuck them in and pray with them, “I love you mama/daddy”. To hear them pray for you and thank Jesus for you, is absolutely indescribable. What on this earth can be more valuable or precious than your baby’s life, and it is your job is to teach them love, compassion, generosity, gratitude and respect. It is for a fact the MOST difficult job you will be ever given, but also the MOST rewarding of all if you have done your job as a parent. God willing, I will have many more Mother’s Days to come and what a great day to simply sit back and reflect on the previous year and all the beautiful changes that took place. I continually ask God to guide me as a mother and to give me strength and patience to teach my babies what is most valuable in life.

Ever since it has been warm and sunny out, I had this idea in my head to take Bella out somewhere in the field of wild flowers and take a couple of pictures of her. Somehow, time kept slipping away and the next thing I knew it warmed up to 90’s and the snakes were out where I was planning on taking her. Last weekend, my parents invited us for barbeque and as I was getting the kids ready, I thought what a perfect day to take her out and shoot a few pictures. Of course it was warm that day and the sun was brightly shining, but with lots of sunscreen I got what I got and am grateful for it. Below are a few shots of Joshy inside and of Bella outside. I think they both had fun, even if I might be known as the crazy mom with camera in their face almost daily 😉 Just making memories is all 🙂

On April 28th, Bella had her first “tot dance” class. Ever since the day I signed her up for it, she has been excited and talking about it constantly. Finally the day came and she informed me, that she was not going to dance, especially not if “other girls” were there also. Let’s just say it was somewhat of a rocky morning and Barry and I had little to no hope that she was at all going to participate in the class that was already pre-paid. Luckily her friend Lissy was also attending the class and our hope was, that she would want to be right by Lissy’s side 😉 As soon as we walked in the room, our daughter started crying (expected). After a few minutes and watching Lissy jump around and asking Bella to come with her, she warmed up a little bit and took a few steps to join Lissy. It’s funny how us as parents also go through certain emotions and in this case, I was feeling a bit sad and wish I could help her acclimate without her feeling as if she doesn’t belong. Bella is definitely not someone I would call social and she never has been. She will not shower you with smiles and try to make friends, she is the type that will take her time and analyze each and every situation that comes her way. Often I feel I should get her exposed to more kids, but that is not who she is. She will be the type that will have a few friends and love and hold on to them dearly and there is nothing wrong with that. I can tell she is content to be with adults and does not feel a bit bored or unhappy. She told me the other day: “Mama, you are my best friend” as she held my face in her hands. Can I say priceless? Yes! I see I drifted off in my thoughts…back to the dance class. I was grateful Rachel (Lissy’s mama) was there, and she helped encourage Bella to join other girls and follow the instructions that were given. If I have done that, she would have just stayed by my side never leaving to see how fun dancing class can be. Thank you Rachel!
As all these cute girls jumped and twirled, I could not believe how quick time has gone by and my tiny Bella was twirling and dancing right there with them. It was the most adorable site, they were all so adorable and free spirited. Tutus, tights, ballet slippers, it was quite a girly deal all the way. At the end, she was so excited, she couldn’t wait to go back and has been again talking about it non stop 🙂 I love my girl!!!